I can’t listen to Norah Jones’ “Come Away With Me” album without thinking of Tommy. He was short-lived but also at the height of my hormonal stints. Most of what I remember about Tommy came from before we even dated.
Tommy, for me, was the anticipation of dating. It was the flirting, the day dreaming, and the excessive contemplation of everything he said over uncooked cookie dough with my friends. When I started crushing on Tommy, I had recently moved my bed near the window of my room, I’d stare outside and listen to “Don’t Know Why” and “Come Away with Me” over and over again on my disc-man. I’d wish I had some instant way to send him a message right at that moment (text messaging wasn’t big yet) that didn’t require me to log on to the family computer.
The worst thing about this relationship is that I don’t remember how it started. I can’t figure out who asked who out, where we went for our first date, or how I felt afterwards. I’m guessing this is the beginning of my aging process and my memory is, apparently, going first. I’m going to assume that I was asked out over AIM. That was the norm at the time and I’m sure I wasn’t any different.
The few moments that Tommy and I did date are still precious to me. They’re also straight out of a 7th Heaven episode (but with less making out on the couch). Tommy would take me to the movie theatre, we’d share some popcorn, and I’d put my hand on the armrest, hoping that he’d get the hint and take my hand, because holding hands was the most important thing for us.
But, like I said, it was short-lived. It was a “Summer Lovin’” scenario and it “happened so fast.”
Still, I can’t look back at these relationships and not stop on Tommy. He represents the innocence of relationships – a time where holding hands was enough – and it’s sometimes a trait that I miss when I’m dating now.
I broke up with Tommy on the phone.
For no justified reason, I just broke up with him. He was the beginning of the boys I would break up with just because I didn’t feel like playing anymore – I used to have a three-month relationship tolerance…actually I still do.